I cannot express to you how different I feel this year compared to last. As I look back in the past year, I see and find so many vast differences in my mood, my outlook, my body, and most importantly my dedication to lead a happy life. Previously I held a blog stigmaunraveled.com, and while I loved it, I didn’t enjoy the content of it because I felt that it was very dark in nature. I felt like I’ve really worked on becoming a new person since my relationship with my ex-ended so about a month ago I decided to let the URL run out and close it out. I imported my content into this blog so it’s there if you so desire, but it’s in the archives.
I am doing daily vlogs on WW, and I absolutely love what I do because I know it works and I know that I am inspiring millions to chase their goals and become their best version of themselves. Just like I have done. Everything I do I do for Jesus. I won’t lie. It’s easy to forget who I do this for. I remind myself constantly that I do this for Jesus because I know that he is proud of me for the work I do in the mental health community in person and within my online communities. I included a video I did last night for you below. If you have WW, you can find me on Connect @av8r007.
I have been working very hard on myself lately, mostly what I think of myself in the mirror and also working on my confidence when interacting with others, especially handsome men that I might be interested in getting to know. :). I still have a hard time bringing up that I don’t drink anymore. It’s odd. My friends are out drinking on the weekends, and I couldn’t be happier at home either working on my YouTube channel (upcoming) or working on this blog. Writing/Recording/Vlogging brings me great joy in life. Drinking alcohol brings me nothing but pain and suicidal thoughts and tendencies.
It wasn’t that I had a problem with alcohol, well maybe heavy pours. It was the fact that after a night of drinking I’d want to buy a gun the next day and blow my head off. Why? Alcohol is a depressant. I am bipolar. I cannot drink. My life is highly valuable compared to the cost of what alcohol would cost me. I sometimes get worried about when I go on holiday about drinking. Oh well, my why matters more. I’ll just take it as it comes to me.
I’ve been hard at work in the gym, and I couldn’t be happier with the results that I’m driving. My training schedule is pretty routine which I love because routine should have been my name! I train as follows../Tuesday/Wednesday/Friday/Saturday/Sunday. My growth days are now Thursdays and Mondays. Thursdays because I have weekly therapy now with my therapist Chris. It’s hard to believe I’ve been seeing my therapist Chris for six years now. It was just yesterday I was being diagnosed. My how my life has changed since my diagnosis. No regrets