ADHD, Automatic Thoughts, Daily Prompt, Depression, Nature, Nourishing the soul, Suicide Prevention, Uncategorized, Weight Watchers

Alone & Vulnerable. You'll never guess what I found.

Today I needed to send out a powerful message that I’ve been harnessing in my soul when I made a discovery earlier this week that if I was weak or didn’t have skills in place I would have been an easy target.  I decided to clean the pantry and I found about .5 of a tall bottle vodka that was from Costco.  It was Kirkland signature and half gone.

 

NOOOOO!!

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I actually wanted to prove to myself that I could pour everything down the train, so I pulled out my phone and started recording the profound moment.  I now have a video that I can go back to my weakest moments and recount the reasons that I announced why I was doing this.  I posted this on Weight Watchers because I made it for the Connect tribe and it was a force of positive force that came with it.

Well – It was the easiest decision I made.

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Every day that I do not drink is every day that I am stronger.  I’m stronger now than I was 12 hours ago when I made the video. NSV = Non Scale Victory.. For WW followers, we’re big on NSV’s! They’re HUGE for us.


 

I don’t want to die young.  I don’t want to be depressed.  I don’t want to be manic. I don’t want this life but I have no choice.

Suicide is not an answer.

I am thrilled to announce that I will be featuring two guest bloggers on my site between now and the end of February.  I’ve chosen these individuals because of the path of freedom they have pursued and how their faith keeps them tied to the ground.

Oh yeah. Here is my progress I’m making with my weight management.

 

 

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Automatic Thoughts, Depression, Nature

It's FRIDAY!

Well, I must have slept a decent amount last night because I woke up today not hating life.  Although I had a smashing headache when I woke up this AM.  Plus I went outside at 5AM to leave for my job and my entire car is covered in Snow.. LOL – It’s November and snowing in Seattle?? Really?  I’ve lived here for five years and I’ve never seen it snow this early…  I’m excited.. I kind of miss snow..  It’s been awhile since I’ve driven IN snow so I’ll watch a YouTube training on snow driving and be OK for the winter.  haha – I get better at parallel parking with age.

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I saw my therapist last night and it was a pretty difficult session.  It is really hard to talk about yourself on the spot especially when you try your best for formulate your entire thought pattern for the week.  I keep a mental list in my head about topics that I want to bring up to Teddy (My therapist) yet I am always forgetting everything I wanted to bring up.  We talked about what my friend Emily is going through and how much it is affecting me.  I’ve just realized over the past few weeks since I found out she had cancer was just how much she meant to me and that I couldn’t imagine my life without her.   Cancer is evil.  We are actively praying to have the cancer banished.

Today was good.  I got a lot done and I’m sitting in this really comfy chair I got off Wayfair.com..  I swear that website is for the furniture addicts.  Good deals to be had there for sure.

Today was better than yesterday.. Thats all that counts.