Triggers for impulsive thoughts:
# 1 Reading other blog websites like BGR.com, Engadget.com or any tech related blog showcasing new items and offering reviews of products.
Type of automatic thought associated: All or Nothing (if I don’t have the latest device ->>>tied to #1 tells me that reading these blogs and websites can cause rage and trigger impulsive thoughts that lead to impulsive actions.
#2: Feeling fat from an eating disorder. While I haven’t been clinically diagnosed with an eating disorder it doesn’t mean that I don’t already have one. Let’s look at the facts: I binge eat on often everyday foods until the point that I fee like puking..yet I don’t make myself puke. Instead I would pour some tasty alcohol to wash it down with and feel depressed the next day (because of alcohol being a depressant and the regret of binging on food)
Type of automatic thought associated: Everything!
The truth is that with CBT and binge eating (being a disorder itself) there is no set characteristic as to where my thought pattern lays other than being corrupt and not true. Perhaps Overgeneralization or Emotional Reasoning. Regardless, if I follow my WW plan and adhere to their guidelines I will lose this weight and it will have an astounding effect on my self esteem. I’m looking forward to it!
#4: iPhone apps
This one I didn’t see coming but when you think about it..makes total sense!
Situation: I’m feeling depressed and my self worth is in the toilet. I didn’t do well on a work project and took the critical feedback negatively and it blossoms into a full depression episode and I’m feeling lousy and want to feel better…I pull out my iPhone and see Amazon….
Solution: It is so easy to use these apps for self pleasure and to make purchasing and spending money easier than ever. What do you do in these situations to prevent history from repeating itself?
DELETE ALL IMPULSIVE APPS!
What a genius idea! I don’t NEED this apps for my survival. I don’t NEED the distraction of online shopping to take me away from the task at hand. On today’s train ride home I deleted the following: Amazon, Wayfair, Target, Any retail app is GONE! I have no intention of downloading that again. If they’re out of site they’re out of my mind. Done.
Remember this: Only this Mark and to everyone on earth.
You are loved. You are a warrior. You are capable of achieving anything you put your mind too.
My depression robs me of anything positive.
May 2018 be the year that changes my soul. I’m not giving up and neither should you.
Tomorrow I will have seen my therapist and will share with you my knowledge and empower you to change your life! We got this. #together