I’m Mark and I live in Seattle, Washington. I love the summers here, but I hate the winters. Thank you for visiting my blog. I am honored that you have chosen to learn more about how mental illness, as well as addiction to alcohol, drugs, and food, have affected my life.
One of my goals with this blog is to unravel the self-hate that has fed my soul for the last thirty years. I strive to achieve this and work towards self-love and self-acceptance via blogging and social media so I would love if you would subscribe/follow my blog as I am working to grow this community and inspire others.
Far too many suicides happen every day, and many of them are preventable. I believe one of the biggest problems is the ignorance and stigma surrounding depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, borderline personality disorder… and hundreds of other conditions that are completely outside of our control. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts during some of the darkest periods of my life. Thankfully, I had a friend who forced me to seek help otherwise I may not be there today.
Another topic I blog about is my self-image. Growing up in a small town, I was bullied throughout my childhood. The way not only kids, but adults treated me was so cruel. I ate my feelings until I couldn’t do it anymore and I would make myself throw up and shame myself daily for not being good enough.
I’ve tried and failed every diet you can think of. If I’ve learned one thing in the last five years of therapy, it’s that humans function best in a structured environment. I joined WW (formally Weight Watchers) in 2007 at 380 pounds. I dabbled in the program over the years but struggled with it as I couldn’t commit to going to meetings and following the program because I didn’t believe in myself. Armed with more confidence these days, the structure of the program suits me, allowing me to track my weight, inspire others, and be myself without any judgment. I feel safe within the WW community.
The challenges I’ve faced and continue to live with inspire me to write and share in an attempt to combat mental health stigma.
Thank you for joining my journey. I look forward to being part of a blogging community that allows us to connect and support each other.
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