Well, what an exciting day it was! Where should I start? Ah yes, oversleeping! Never a good idea on a Monday! Would I call in that I overslept and I’d be in shortly and take the next bus, or do I need to take a Lyft and get there on time? By the time I wake up I’m really not ready to make any big decisions until I at least get the opportunity to choose happiness before my feet hit the floor. I needed to take a Lyft, so I called one up and I got to work on time, despite oversleeping. Victory for me, yet it was a casual $10 fare which I didn’t really expect that I would be forking over first thing Monday AM before my morning coffee. What can you do though? You have 2 minutes to decide your method of transport and you have places to be!
As I’m heading down the stairs to fetch my ride, I am finding that I am in a self-destructive mood in terms of remembering some of the highlights that I experienced over my long weekend and discounting them because I was feeling pissed off, but I didn’t know why yet. I got to go on a date which was really lovely and I saw Mission Impossible yesterday and it was terrific. It was an excellent weekend however as soon as I sat down in my Lyft I felt the happiness start to slide over and misery began to push me over and slide me off my chair. Misery loves company. I didn’t allow myself more than 30 seconds until I ate so much over the weekend, but I also worked my butt off at the gym… Why do I feel so angry? What did I do that I don’t know about? Something is wrong. I can’t choose happiness. Why can’t I prefer happiness? This isn’t right. Something is off.
… the weigh in?
I weighed in this AM before I left the apartment and I gained 4.6 lbs over the weekend. Did this set me off for a self-destructive AM mood? Credible. I wasn’t wearing my glasses when I weighed in today either so I couldn’t see what it was telling me, I figured my phone would just tell me I was the same (Withings Body Cardio Scale) which measures your stats to your mobile. I’m up 4.6 pounds yet! What the fork is that about? 4.6 is a lot. AH OK… Now we now why Mark is off… Now to be fair, I do lift heavy weights, but with bodybuilding, you have to eat an immense amount of protein, and for 6’4″ 220 I need to eat 276g of protein a day.
Finding 276g of protein a day can be tricky, however, I am finding clever ways to make it work. I am sticking to my WW Freestyle foods which give me the most bang for my point. Chicken is zero, and unlimited but I still portion it because I am tracking my macronutrients in a separate app because WW doesn’t allow you to see your protein grams. I have yet to reach 276g of protein daily. I have met 250g as my farthest. You have to be careful though about your protein sources. I can’t eat junk food. That’s not Freestyle. That’s burnout and zero results.
For dietary choices, I’ve switched to Egg Beaters because it’s 0 fat, o cholesterol, and all the protein because it’s egg whites. I have 1 cup of Egg Beaters every morning scrambled which is 0 points on Freestyle and that comes out to about 24g of protein which is the same as 4 whole eggs. I try to take in 40-50G of protein at every intake meal. For breakfast, it’s usually the eggs and a 12-15G protein yogurt like Chobani or alike. Watch the sugar on the yogurts though… Like I said I’m smart. I know I can always do a better job but I’m making it work and that’s all that matters.
I’m the happiest I’ve ever been.
Depression can’t win me over.
Not even in the dead of winter can I be robbed of the joy for I am worthy.