Hey there Folks!
What a beautiful Saturday it is in Seattle! I woke up this morning after feeling pretty sour going to bed last night due to a mixed bag of emotional distress. Mostly about my ex, my past drinking addiction, and my commitment to maintaining my sobriety above all us.
Instead of waking up and turning on the TV as I typically do, I looked at my watch and said ‘I need to prioritize my day.’ If I sit here and do nothing except wallow in my self-misery then I’m going to start binging more than I already have on junk food, and worse I’ll just sneak farther away into depression and when depression gets really bad it can trigger a manic episode and that is the last thing I want to have to happen. I will do whatever it takes to prevent a manic/mania incident from forming and lashing out.
I grabbed a protein shake and I headed to the gym. For all the anger that I have in this world, nothing feels better than to bottle it up and let it explode on the barbell. For every time I complete a rep of 10 bicep curls with every breath I can see the demon leaving me. With every push up I can feel the demon trying to sit on my back and push me down, but I say Piss off Depression, you’re not welcome here. You never were.
I am fearless. Depression does not own me. Depression does not control me. The demon will never win. Jesus Christ is on my side and that’s the way is gonna be!