ADHD, Automatic Thoughts, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), Depression, Nourishing the soul

Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what’s mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you if you’d only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

I’ve kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can’t break my spirit – it’s my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the father of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine,
And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.

 


 

We had an amazing five years.  I have no regrets about us.  You taught me what love was and what it felt like to love.  I will never forget the memories we shared together.

I pick up keys to my place on Saturday.  I’m so sad this relationship is over.

It was for the best.  We gave it our all.

7 thoughts on “Goodbye My Lover”

  1. Hi mark,
    I have been silently following your connection on weight watchers for the last four months and I look forward to following you on your journey. This is my fourth time back on ww but this time is for keeps. I, like you am gay. I am in a committed relationship, and have been for16 years now. Although I really don’t know much about your situation, reading between the lines reminds me of the place I was at nearly 20 years ago. I was in a different relationship, but when I had met my ex, I was self hating and very toxic to myself and to my partner. He was an amazing man, but I wasn’t. I needed to learn to love myself on my own. It killed me to leave him but it made me the person I am today. My weight will always be a struggle and I plan to conquer this now.
    I just wanted to tell you how much of an inspiration your posts have been. Especially the one whet you posted how many extra weekly points you had gone over. I now remin myself if I do something similar.
    You are great and you have already succeeded.
    Thanks,
    William

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    1. Dear William, thank you so much for your message. It is amazing to see relationships grow. Thank you so much for following my journey and I’m glad that you wrote and that I could connect with you. Take care William. Be well

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  2. I love your WW profile and now I am reading your blog. I’m thrilled with your resilience and determination. Continue to be strong. ❤️18itsthelaw (Shelly).

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