The weekend has arrived in Seattle and I couldn’t be more happy to see it! This week has been grueling for my depression, my eating habits, and my sleep but I am confident that the depression that I’ve faced this last week is on its way out of my head and I’m really happy about that. Last night I saw my therapist and we talked extensively about the self-worth issue that is so persistent in my mind. We worked on some really good techniques and I had the opportunity to think about them tonight and I’m writing tonight because I promised you that I would provide you with some thoughts on this article.
So last night at therapy I was handed ’15 ways to untwist your thinking:
Here is the link to the document: 15 Ways to Untwist Your Thinking
I’ve read only half of “Feeling good” and when I told my therapist I was reading the book he was ecstatic and couldn’t wait to whip out his copy and show me that he has it too! Imagine that. I knew I liked you doc. Well I only made it half way through the book before I naturally became sidetracked from reading and fell out of interest. I was also less depressed while I was reading the book because it was definitely helping me apply some good techniques to battling my depression and racing thoughts. You would think that I would want to immediately jump back into another self help book and bury myself in positive reinforcing thoughts.. right? Nope. I hate reading books! I get so bored reading them.. Cue the ADHD that refuses to allow my mind to focus on reading a book. Yet, I love to write and read REAL stories. I like to read stories about your life. How do you handle self help books? Do you actively apply the techniques as you read them? Or do you want till you finish the book before you apply it to your mind?
I’d like to tear apart a thought constructively and practice this document in theory:
Thought: It’s no shame you didn’t get invited to the party. You’re a LOSER! Everybody hates you.
Method: The double standard technique
Description of Method: Instead of putting yourself down, talk to yourself in the same compassionate way you might talk to a friend who was upset.
Question to ask yourself: Would I say such harsh things to a friend with a similar problem? What would I say to him or her?
Well! What have I just discovered. I’ve never thought about that! When I feel like a loser I’m only thinking about myself and my wicked blues. What if my friend Amanda told me that? “Taylor, I’m such a loser. I didn’t get invited to Jake’s party and everyone will know it. I’m a complete loser. I hate myself. I wish I could just be liked for once!
No Amanda, that’s not who you are. You are loved, and a beautiful person. Jake is stupid for not inviting you. His loss.” I would immediately say. What she just said is ridiculously stupid.
I learned a really good lesson last night that I’m going to apply to my life. Right now. I’m going to go back and finish the book. I’m committed to mental health and looking for ways to give back to my quality of life and be the person I was born to be.