Two of the worst things in life. The rain and Diet Coke.. Yet both bring so much comfort to my soul. We are now into the first 24 hours of the next seven days of Seattle gray and zero sunshine… Now it’s really critical that I use my happy light daily in order to stay on top of my depression and automatic thoughts.
We need the sunshine in order to get our daily vitamin D. In the Northwest we are told by our doctors to take extra vitamin D during the winter months as the sunshine is limited. I keep forgetting that I need to put that into my routine. It should help with my depression.
I often wonder in the back of my head if there is something that I am doing that causes these racing thoughts, mania, and anxiety. Am I consuming anything in particular that is exasperating my moods? I ask myself this question a lot and I continue to ignore it because Diet Coke is my vice. I could drink Diet Coke everyday for the rest of my life and feel totally okay with it. Is Diet Coke my nemesis? If it is, I’m in trouble because the Diet Coke that I consume could really lead to problems down the line if I don’t get this under control. Sweet fiancé, if you’re reading this, I know you’re rejoicing that I’m even having this conversation in my head..
I’ve been sober for four months now, almost five. I’m thrilled with what I’ve accomplished so far and perhaps I’m ready to look at more areas in my life that I can clean up. I need to be absolutely sure that I take this slowly. I am an extremist.
Whats your take on aspartame and depression? Have you had any positive effects by giving it up?
I’m feeling better everyday that I continue to blog. I feel redeemed when I am able to write and share with you.
Take care of each other. We need lots of love these days.